great time with a great man :)

I wish I could see through your eyes, so I would know what you like to see.
I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want.
I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do,and together we could make them come true.
I wish I knew what makes you happy,so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world.
And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood,so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart.

my sweet 24th birthday

Actually this is my first birthday far from my family, community and people that i love. Yesterday i felt so sad, wanna crying so loud. i miss about everything and most of all i was sad because i know i will celebrate my birthday alone. 

But i was wrong. First person who texted me was him from indonesia, yes i know, i was too believe he was in Indonesia at that time.

In the morning, I was awakened by surprise from him, which at first I thought he was in Indonesia. I was silent, shocked, and didn't know what to say. He who texted me last night was in manila now in front of me  carrying cupcakes.

Anw i am 24 y.o. now. Thank God for Your blessing through the last year, i learn much about faith and grace. Thank you for my mom, dad. inal n aaron who sent me a piglet cupcake, Thank you mamibabi n papibabi who also gave me a piggy cake. thank you for ko redy n ci elsa too, but most of all thak you for him who came to manila, give me a cupcake *i was very shocked because when i see the cupcake's character, i realize that you know detail about me*, thank you for piggy doll, thank you for "mie baso" and thank you for your time that you spent in manila with me

thank you for making my birthday so special :) 

mengenangmu (dedicated for my school mate)

Takkan pernah habis air mataku

Bila ku ingat tentang dirimu

Mungkin hanya kau yang tahu

Mengapa sampai saat ini ku masih sendiri

Adakah disana kau rindu padaku

Meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda

Bila masih mungkin waktu berputar

Kan kutunggu dirimu 

Biarlah ku simpan sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana

Tenanglah diriku dalam kedamaian

Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi

Namun cintamu abadi 

love and pain

if we love each other, then why do we hurt each other

how precious they are in my live

dan bila aku berdiri

tegar sampai hari ini

bukan karena kuat dan hebatku

semua karena cinta

semua karena cinta

tak mampu diriku berdiri tegak

terima kasih cinta

dreamkiller vs dreambuilder

several days ago my friends always talk about dream killer

what is dream killer?

dream killer is someone who cut your dream. if you have big dreams she or he will always says that we don't have to have big dreams like that. he or she will make you down and think that you can't reach your big dream.

but now, i don't want to talk about dreamkiller. i would like to talk about dreambuilder

yesterday i talked a lot with him

he is not my boyfriend or someone that i like

he is my mentor, teacher, and best friends

he has a humble heart

for me, he is my dreambuilder

yesterday, we have been talking for 2 hours

yes, we talked a lot about my dreams, my passion and my vission

he always helps me to see a bigger dream that i never thought before

he could always make me to never stop dreaming, and assured me that I am able to reach it

he always says that i have a potential more that i ever thought

he is my best motivator

when i feel so desperate, he can bring back my dreams

when i see one step ahead, he helps me to see two steeps ahead

and today, his words always in my mind. his word makes me strong and never stop to dream

"it's not about your skill ,tas,it's about your compassion #ROR"

and i thanks God among many dreamkillers around me, I still have a dreambuilder that always brings me to have bigger dreams

i remember the boy, but i don't remember the feeling anymore

Today I heard them play the song again

An old familiar strain from way back

when every note and every line

It's always been a favorite song of mine

It used to haunt me so some years ago

Reminds me of a boy I used to know

And although the melody lives on

The memories and the boy are all but gone

And while the song still brings that certain glow

And the words still sing of love I know

It isn't quite the way it was before

I remember the boy

But I don't remember the feeling anymore

The promises we made seemed easier then

As if we knew our love would never end

But seasons change and time erases the tears

As quickly as the rivers disappear

So while the song still brings that certain glow

And the words still sing of love I know

It isn't quite the way it was before

I remember the boy

But I don't remember the feeling