counting time towards the end of the year

counting time towards the end of the year
huaaaa
I am so excited to welcome in the year 2010, year of EMPOWERMENT

new year
new hope
new faith

This made me reflect that there are so many events that I have spent during the year 2009
either bad or good events
thank God for an extraordinary ENCOUNTER "getting God's vision"
I actually saw the mercy of god in ENCOUNTER
thanks for all God has entrusted to me

this year God has made me strong when I have to lose everything I've built from zero
but much can I learn from this event
"I serve God not because the status, but because I love my God"

but I enjoyed every existing process
I always try to thank every event that I experienced
I am grateful to have a great and a big GOD in my life

I am very grateful to the most important people for me this year:
# Ka Franz & Ka Chiqa
#Andre, Jejes, Yogi, Aldy, Siska
#Kharisma, Nando, Acha, Lulu, Keke, Gun, Dea, Risye, Jojo (and all the Angela's areas that I can not mention one by one)
#Rina Melisa M and Alexander Anugrahputra (my luphly daughter and her dad.ahahahha)
# and the last to someone (you were one of those close to me in this year.ahahahha)



I am very thankful for your prayers,your cares, and your covers for me

and the last I just wanted to say that I want in the next year we will still be together
walking together as a FAMILY to serve GOD
I believe next year will be more extraordinary than this year

let's end this year with thanks
cos GOD is GOOD all the time

see you next year

love you all,

-tashaluphs-

i can't survive anymore

someone told me,

if you want to forget someone
put all about that person into the box
key that box

throw that key as far as possible

and put that box deep inside your heart

let the box still in your heart
without having to open it again

I have been trying to survive with your attitude
but now i can't survive anymore
I am not as strong as you think
sorry
I had to put all of our memories into that box that I would never go back

if you want me to back i promise, you will never find me to back

hikz..hikz..

just need a shoulder to cry
achaa, i need you
hikz.hikz.hikz

091109

Sometimes I feel so alone
I call your heart, but there’s no one at home
Taking a toll on my pride
I’m reaching out, but there’s no one inside
You know it doesn’t feel right

When I look in your eyes
I know love is blind,
but the heart doesn’t lie
I’ll ask one more time
Maybe this time you’ll try

So tell me boys
“What deep in your heart?”

Boy I care about you
I’m there for you
So why don’t you care for me
like I care about you?

I spend like all of my day
Trying to sense out just how thing got this way
I though that we were in love
But I swear right know
I don’t know what you want.
I make sure that I give you quality time

But lately,
I feel you’re not home by design
But still I’m gonna try
To give you the love of my life
In hope that you,
that you will open up your heart

Sometimes I’m not sure that
that I am all you got
sometimes I’m not sure you love me or not
just one thing that I’m certain of
Boy, I care for you
And one thing that I want is

You care for me too

hikzzzz

sepertinya saia mencintai orang yang salah

broken vow

lagi di kos DEA, n dengerin lagu ini

hmmmm

asa keren aja,
asa kaya pernah ngalamin kaya gini
ahahahhaha

"250505"."150509"
tanggalnya deketan tapi beda taunnya
hehehehheheh

BROKEN VOW

Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end ??

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years??
Who lays with you at night
While I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I let you go
I let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time


I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes

I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end

ini lagu lohhhh

gantungnya hubungan cintaku
membuatku sakit
hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
dan meninggalkan dirimu

argghhhh

Tuhan, saia sayang dia. . .

kamu bener-bener aneh

kamu dateng tiba-tiba
pergi juga tiba-tiba

apa seh maunya kamu???

for him "my****"

sorry

gua memang pernah buka hati buat dia..
gua udah pernah ngasih kesempatan ama dia..
tapi dia udah nyia2in semuanya..

sorry I must close my heart for you

cinta..cinta..membingungkan..

cinta..cinta..
ckckckckkc
perasaan yang membuat bingung aja..

bingung harus gmn..
banyak pertimbangan..
apa karena gua terlalu perfeksionis yaph dalam milih???
huaaaaaaaaaaaaa

gua memang sayang dia, tapi sekarang asa ngegantung ga jls
mungkin memang jalan terbaenya gua pergi dari kehidupannya..

mungkin memang salah gua seh,

terlalu ngebawa dia ke perasaan..

gua ga mau perasaan gua jadi lbh ngedominasi daripada logika gua..

gua tetep harus milih salah satu yang terbae..
gua ga suka hubungan yang ga jls gini..