i remember the boy, but i don't remember the feeling anymore

Today I heard them play the song again

An old familiar strain from way back

when every note and every line

It's always been a favorite song of mine

It used to haunt me so some years ago

Reminds me of a boy I used to know

And although the melody lives on

The memories and the boy are all but gone

And while the song still brings that certain glow

And the words still sing of love I know

It isn't quite the way it was before

I remember the boy

But I don't remember the feeling anymore

The promises we made seemed easier then

As if we knew our love would never end

But seasons change and time erases the tears

As quickly as the rivers disappear

So while the song still brings that certain glow

And the words still sing of love I know

It isn't quite the way it was before

I remember the boy

But I don't remember the feeling

my graduation day

random

what if I said someday but someday I mean it never existed
I feel like a dream but for something that will never happen
should I just keep dreaming and faithful that?

random think [2]

you are the first thing I most wanted to leave behind when I leave this country

all about you

random think

you were a mistake i knew i was making

someday

someday you'll realize

how much you cared about her

and how amazing she really was

And when that days come,

she'll be walking with the guy who already knew

i love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can

Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go

But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

Leaving someone when you love someone

Is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as I love you

I don't wanna leave you

it tears me up inside

But I'll never be the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

LOVER become STRANGER

kadang masalah ini deh yang selalu bikin galau

and tonight i miss our time and everything bout you!

our time that we spent in that cafe and ate the ice cream

just you and me

i miss when we were talking in my room

once again, just you and me

saya pergi bukan berarti saya meninggalkan hati saya

saya masih membawa hati saya yang sama

hati yang masih terlalu mencintaimu

LOVER become STRANGER

dan sekarang saya menyadari ga ada lagi orang seperti kamu

dulu setiap saya ada masalah

saya selalu telepon kamu

setiap saya senang

kamu lah orang pertama yang tau

Sekarang kita berjalan ke dua arah yang berbeda

kamu menjadi orang yang snagat asing bagi saya

3 tahun adalah waktu yang cukup bagi saya untuk mencintai kamu

goodbye, my best friends

just for you :)

dan aku akan membawa kamu ke dalam setiap mimpi yang sudah Tuhan kasih dalam hidupku

for my best lecture

This blog i dedicated for you

for me, he is not just my lecture, he is my father and my best friend

i admired him so much

this is for you,

my best lecture

Mr Robert Oloan Rajagukguk

my fabulaous 23th birthday

surprise from mami papi babi

Surprise from kidos

This note always make me cry

Last week is my birthday

I realized that God is really good in my life

many things that make me amazed in my birthday

esspecially next year I realized that maybe I could no longer celebrate my birthday together

I may already be in another country

early in the morning when I woke up Ka Chiqa & Ka Frans came in with "THE HARVEST" tart

I am happy with what they always do when my birthday

afternoon suddenly there was a call from one of my mother's spiritual child

She said she wanted to meet me to discuss about her daughters

Our appointment at Aston Primera hotel at 4 o'clock

when I got there I talked long enough in the hotel room until finally there was "OB" who knocked on the door

I was asked to open the door,

and when the doors opened I was very speechless,

all my spiritual children, spiritual grandchildren and all the kids in my area come and bring me a cake

I cried

they give gift to me scraptbook

I see the gifts that night and i am crying

I amazed at how big my God is

He sent me a beautiful gift, which can never be exchanged for any

I cried when I know how sacrifice my children to be able to make a gift

God once again told me "Tash, I never owed ​​in your life"

I created this blog specially for all my little angels

God love you, so do i

Claudia, Sarah, Grace, Devina, Ina, Joy, Ebo, Jasson,

Christy, Nathalie, Ilene, Janice, Cindy, Leo, Anes, Gerald, Luis

officially Renattasha, S.Psi

big lollipop from Ka Franz & Ka Chiqa. Big thanxz 4 u both

today is my big day 090811

hari yang mungkin sangat gua harepin terjadi selama 4 taun ini

hari yang ga pernah gua sangka bakal dateng secepet ini

beres semua jerih payah gua selama 4 taun

jadi seorang sarjana dalam waktu tercepat

i'm not the smartest student, but God made me the first

setalah 2 jam di ruang sidang,

Let me introduce:

RENATTASHA, S.Psi lulus dengan nilai A

in my big day i want to say thanks to:

mama, papa, inal, aaron. this is 4 u guys!

Robert Oloan Radjagukguk, Ph.D, Psik Gua beruntung banget bisa jadi anak bimbingannya. apa yang Bapa kasih bukan hanya sekedar bimbingan skripsi tapi bimbingan tentang segala hal. i admired Him so much. Jalan pikirannya yang sangat luas dan terbuka. Sosok seorang bapa yang mengayomi anaknya. walaupun kadang keliatan cuek tapi sebenernya Bapa tuh care banget.

Ni Luh Ayu Vivekananda, M.Psi, Psik. She is smart. Ka Ayu bukan hanya sekedar dosen pembimbing tapi sahabat yang baik. Walaupun suka ngilang. hahahaha. Tapi Ka Ayu bisa bikin gua tenang setiap kali gua panik ama semua deadline yang ada.

temen-temen 07. Koko Rocky, Agatha, Handha, Sita, Neysa, Ega, Shila, Restika, Dini, Ninis, Detsy, Ajeng, Galih, Easter, Vivi, Menjay, Agus, Bobby, Ika, Lisa dan semuanya. Makasih buat 4 tain bersama kalian. perjalanan yang banyak ngubah hidup gua. buat setiap semangad, doa dan canda tawanya. will gonna miss u guys

Frans Yanuar dan Jessica Amanda Damadjanto. it was amazing that i have u in my life. thanxz 4 sharing ur life to me. Ur pray and ur love. Nakasih udah dateng detik-detik menjelang saya sidang dengan permen lolinya. Love u most!

my cell is my family

ga tau kenapa pas tengah2 komsel waktu itu

Tuhan nyuruh gua buat foto komsel area di bawah gua

awalnya susah banget ngumpulin anak2nya

tapi gua cuma ngomong ama leader2nya

tentang maksud gua napa gua mau kita bikin foto area

dan yang paling bikin gua amaze

ternyata mereka nangkep isi hati gua

dan inilah hasil foto2 kita

MYCELLisMYFAMILY

kata pengantar skripsi

finaly setelah 4 taun,

saia bisa juga nulis kata-kata ini

once again i just want to say

thank you for all

Aku telah mengakhiri pertandingan yang baik,

aku telah mencapai garis akhir dan aku telah memelihara iman.

i don't like him

me: i don't like him, i don't like him, i don't like him, i don't like him

friend: yes, you do

me: i know :(

marry your daughter

someday you will sing this song for me

The first time I saw her

I swear I knew that I say I do

I'm gonna marry your daughter

And make her my wife

I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life

And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die

I'm gonna marry your princess

And make her my queen

She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen

I can't wait to smile

As she walks down the aisle

On the arm of her father

On the day that I marry your daughter

we are S.Psi wanna be

time passes so fast
I feel, just yesterday I started this journey
but when I opened my eyes, I realized that I was almost at the end of this journey

past four years I have
I laughed, I cried, I am happy and I am sad
all I've passed along your

now I have to end this journey and begin a new journey in my life that I might pass without you guys
thank you because you have become part of a journey of my life

love.you

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and tonight I cried again because of him

tried to remain brave and strong

but I was not too strong to pretend it

I love him

still love you

I always tried to find his weakness so i can stop loving him

but I can't

I love him

i love him as much as I love him two years ago

never change

i tried to love another man

but i still love him

you're still the one that i love

Do you know how much have I have to force myself?

Can’t you hear my heart calling for you, loving you

But I can’t release my heart out for anyone to know

Can’t you hear my heart’s waiting there for you

Waiting for you to feel it.

I was hoping that you will realize someday

sorry for everything, you still my "man of God"

sweet goodbye

maybe I was too brave to take this decision

but already I think this decision carefully and without emotion

release does not mean I don't love you

but this is the best way for us

useless if we keep our relationship will only hurt us

hopefully someday you can find the perfect woman who you don't get from me

once again sorry I have to go and leave you

I went without tears, because I was numb with you

I am happy now

masih ada-kerispatih

Jangan kau tanyakan lagi
Hatiku pasti untukmu
Meski aku tak sempurna
Tak mampu jadi yang terbaik
Apapun yang terjadi ku kan slalu menjagamu
Sebesar ketulusan hatimu

Reff :
Masih ada rasa cinta disini
Yang sanggup membuatmu ada di hatiku, tak kan hilang
Dan masih ada
Kekuatan jiwaku tuk mempertahankan hidupku untukmu
Bersama s'lamanya
Semua yang t'lah kita lewati
Membuat kita dewasa
Untuk dapat memahami, menjalani
Semua cerita cinta kita berdua

Bridge :
Bertahanlah, untukku, karna
Ku cinta kamu

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listen my dear,
only God knows why we came up this way..
we've already tried,
but we can't fight no more..
there's something we can't work on..
so,
when the day has come,
let it be our heart will still be together..
even when we are separated by a long long distance..
trust me, my dear.
our love is the only thing precious..
that i'll take to my final rest..

need to be alone for a while

leave me alone for a while

23022011

now been through five days after the day

no sms, no bbm, no contacts

good

all the negative things and I fear for this appear as though

I am afraid in the end he will leave me like them

crying is not going to solve the problem

maybe he never knew what I was feeling

I felt pain, but he seems not to care

KKSK

ku tak akan pernah berpaling darimu
walau kini kau jauh dari ku
kan slalu ku nanti

karna ku sayang kamu

day 3

iloveyou

love this